Once you doubt
You doubt everything
From the suspiscious to the most mundane
Once you fight
You see a battlefield laid down before your eyes
Soon enough gun shots are your lullaby to sleep
Once your friends turned their backs on you
You’re careful about the little things.
Building a wall to protect yourself in battle
Dress yourself in impenetrable armor so no one can hurt you again.
Never letting your guard down even inside closed doors.
The night’s power of letting loose secrets will forever be your enemy.
Because you know
Once you let go
They will turn their backs.
Once you doubt. You doubt everything.
Once you fight. You never win.