I’m frightened, really frightened of this new nudge thing the government are using to experiment on the sick and disabled back to work.
My doctor is fabulous when it comes to my depression or anything I may have, she’s been with me every step of the way concerning getting my physical breakdown diagnosed. She’s been trying to get me higher on the therapy list, and finding alternatives.
I haven’t seen her in a while, and I do need to make an appointment because I think I need stronger antidepressants and to be referred to the assessment team.
But what I have heard about Nudge, it sounds like they are getting doctors involved to find you fit for work, as well as invading in on privacy.
Already feeling pressured to go back to work, and this news makes me frightened and absolutely petrified that they are going to put me in any old job and expect me to work.
I’m afraid of having another breakdown, and then being told I still need to go to work.
A lot of stuff is going around and around in my head, and I’m exhausted from it. I don’t want feel this way, but for me this is a normal part of my life worrying about things.
Not that I don’t want to go back to work, I just want to do it when I am ready. And find a job that is going to be supportive with my needs, and I don’t think the government want that to happen.
They are just going to make us do workfare, this is all just to make us slaves instead of depending on them.
And what about if I need a day off because I am in a bad way depression wise, are they going to make work through that or make me lose my job and be forced into JSA or some kind of reprogramming programme.
It sounds like they are not giving us all the details, and there are more sinister things ahead. As if they have plans for horrible things to happen if you don’t comply, and I’m guessing these involve no money, starving to death, prison, concentration camps.
I’m still suicidal and I want to get out of here, but at the same time I know this is what they want from me.
There is the fact that I to fight them, only I am so exhausted, and as u have said before I am loosing a little bit of fight everyday.
I don’t know what I can do to help stop this, I want to though.
Sorry for the lack of blogging and reblogging yesterday, I had such an awful day.
It was one of those days when you feel surrounded, and not only that, but people are laughing at you.
My paranoia has been slowly getting worse since joining Maximus, Mind are right, it does does make people with mental health problems worse.
I didn’t even play in my dungeons and dragons group last night either, I just was quiet and let everyone else do what they had to do.
The government have no right psychologically torturing people, especially those with mental health problems.
They take away our treatment, they make us do WRAG Workshops that adresses nothing. All because they want more money, in Gideon’s case, more money for drugs.
I like many with mental health problems are nearly ten seconds away from ending it all, we’re unwell and feel we have nowhere to turn to.
It’s as if we are being punished for what we have wrong with us, like they want us to work away our conditions, because apparently work cures all.
It amazes me how much the Tories are still in the dark ages when it comes to mental health, are they really that thick or is it ignorance?
I have I no idea, however what I do know is that I am losing my fight. Today I have a little fight, but yesterday I lost all hope.
I did comment on one blog post, which I think might be relevant here, and sorry if this blog sounds rude.
All I want in life is to be as independent as I can, have a supported housing, and a job where I won’t be stigmatized with someone going to and from work with me.
I know this probably sounds like a waste of tax payers money, and rather selfish.
I know the Tories would make it seem that way.
The Tories are evil, they sold their souls to the devil ages ago. We need to get them out now!