I’ve always believed that the Globalists are in control of our lives, and we are all being used as pawns, and in the end we are all going to die.
I don’t know if this is my depression, whether I am dumb, watched and read too many Utopian movie and book, or I just think the worse of everything, which would actually lead back to the depression wouldn’t it?
I just feel like we are heading ever closer.
All I know is I am frightened about this; I am frightened about mum and dad getting hurt or dying about the Globalists. It keeps me up at night, it makes me want to cut, it makes me want to question everything even my own thoughts and feelings.
Political Correctness scares the fuck out of me, and if it keeps going the way it is, we are not going to be allowed to think, like what we want, do what we want, or feel the feelings we want to.
It’s just going to be silence, nobody saying anything to anyone because of fears of upsetting people, or because the government have banned words and thoughts.
So where does that leave people?
What will happen to people with mental health problems?
What is going to happen to the people who commit though, word crimes?
This is what goes through my head every day, and nobody seems to want to answer, nor acknowledge that this might actually happen sooner than we think.
With Political Correctness goes Communism, and we all know that leaders would love that to happen.
The UN certainly wouldn’t mind, and I’m sure by now all you guys are thinking I am some religious nut, or Alt Righter who is scared of the white genocide.
I don’t believe that, but I do believe the rich are trying to get rid of the poor, and communism is another useful tool for them, since you will probably starve to death. On the other hand, be sent to a rehabilitation camp where you must learn the rules and work until you die. North Korea already has this, the gulags was in Russia, and have people fighting for food, Social Justice Warriors doing fuck all and still getting paid as if they are.
Does that sound good?
Meanwhile everyone is dying, nobody is getting richer only poorer, and the rich are laughing away, while the social justice warriors use their powers to climb to the top.
Does that sound fair?
I am getting so fed up with the left, they’ve got my friend and my friend is starting to tell me what to watch, read, say, and do.
Last night while on the phone and being screamed at for the thousandth time because of watching something that they have deemed Alt Right, screaming about I have betrayed them. I cut myself while this was happening, and it fucking hurt, but it was nice to feel that as I heard the screams on the phone. I cut myself where I had my skin graft taken, that way when it starts healing it won’t be so noticeable.
It’s really stupid of me to do, I haven’t cut in ages, and I’m about to get discharged from the Brief Intervention Team. I am so disappointed in myself by letting somebody get to me to the point I went and cut myself. I should have used the box breathing technique to calm down, and been more assertive with them. However, I am not very good at that, but mostly because it reminded me of being bullied at school, at being home and having Stephen screaming at mum and dad while I hid in my room, my Step Brother blaming me for what he was doing to me.
I cannot like anything on YouTube, reblog anything that might be perceived as Alt Right, or I am picking on a group of people because of the titles Crazy Feminists or Social Justice Warriors. I have to put everything in a private folder so they cannot see it, and make sure not to accidently like a video or anything.
And this is exhausting, I can understand that my friend works two jobs and hates Trump, but the way they are telling me that Mainstream Media should be trusted, and reblogging blogs is not helpful.
How I am not helping people by liking this stuff, how I should be going through all the information I get, even though I do. How my friend has explained repeatedly and I am drifting away from them. How they think I am only drawn to these people because I am attracted to abusers, because I am a very gullible person.
I don’t know what to do anymore, all I do is keep waiting for my friend to tweet at me how a content creator or blogger is Alt Right and I need to avoid them.