Tag: Thoughts

Is 1984 is Coming? Thoughts about the World and my personal life.

I’ve always believed that the Globalists are in control of our lives, and we are all being used as pawns, and in the end we are all going to die.

I don’t know if this is my depression, whether I am dumb, watched and read too many Utopian movie and book, or I just think the worse of everything, which would actually lead back to the depression wouldn’t it?

I just feel like we are heading ever closer.

All I know is I am frightened about this; I am frightened about mum and dad getting hurt or dying about the Globalists. It keeps me up at night, it makes me want to cut, it makes me want to question everything even my own thoughts and feelings.

Political Correctness

Political Correctness scares the fuck out of me, and if it keeps going the way it is, we are not going to be allowed to think, like what we want, do what we want, or feel the feelings we want to.

It’s just going to be silence, nobody saying anything to anyone because of fears of upsetting people, or because the government have banned words and thoughts.

So where does that leave people?

What will happen to people with mental health problems?

What is going to happen to the people who commit though, word crimes?

This is what goes through my head every day, and nobody seems to want to answer, nor acknowledge that this might actually happen sooner than we think.

Communism

With Political Correctness goes Communism, and we all know that leaders would love that to happen.

The UN certainly wouldn’t mind, and I’m sure by now all you guys are thinking I am some religious nut, or Alt Righter who is scared of the white genocide.

I don’t believe that, but I do believe the rich are trying to get rid of the poor, and communism is another useful tool for them, since you will probably starve to death. On the other hand, be sent to a rehabilitation camp where you must learn the rules and work until you die. North Korea already has this, the gulags was in Russia, and have people fighting for food, Social Justice Warriors doing fuck all and still getting paid as if they are.

Does that sound good?

Meanwhile everyone is dying, nobody is getting richer only poorer, and the rich are laughing away, while the social justice warriors use their powers to climb to the top.

Does that sound fair?

I am getting so fed up with the left, they’ve got my friend and my friend is starting to tell me what to watch, read, say, and do.

Last night while on the phone and being screamed at for the thousandth time because of watching something that they have deemed Alt Right, screaming about I have betrayed them. I cut myself while this was happening, and it fucking hurt, but it was nice to feel that as I heard the screams on the phone. I cut myself where I had my skin graft taken, that way when it starts healing it won’t be so noticeable.

It’s really stupid of me to do, I haven’t cut in ages, and I’m about to get discharged from the Brief Intervention Team. I am so disappointed in myself by letting somebody get to me to the point I went and cut myself. I should have used the box breathing technique to calm down, and been more assertive with them. However, I am not very good at that, but mostly because it reminded me of being bullied at school, at being home and having Stephen screaming at mum and dad while I hid in my room, my Step Brother blaming me for what he was doing to me.

I cannot like anything on YouTube, reblog anything that might be perceived as Alt Right, or I am picking on a group of people because of the titles Crazy Feminists or Social Justice Warriors. I have to put everything in a private folder so they cannot see it, and make sure not to accidently like a video or anything.

And this is exhausting, I can understand that my friend works two jobs and hates Trump, but the way they are telling me that Mainstream Media should be trusted, and reblogging blogs is not helpful.

How I am not helping people by liking this stuff, how I should be going through all the information I get, even though I do. How my friend has explained repeatedly and I am drifting away from them. How they think I am only drawn to these people because I am attracted to abusers, because I am a very gullible person.

I don’t know what to do anymore, all I do is keep waiting for my friend to tweet at me how a content creator or blogger is Alt Right and I need to avoid them.

I’m exhausted.

The General Election that is in June, moreover it is on my Birthday.

I’m really not sure who to vote for; I mean I know I don’t want to vote for Theresa May and the Conservatives.

My heart is saying to vote for Corbyn, the only problem with that is I do not want communism or socialism, they are my biggest fears. Communism seems like it is trying to be helpful for people, but it works out to be awfully hard, and doesn’t actually help.

The Liberal Democrats seem to be trying their hardest; however I still haven’t forgiven them for shacking up with the Conservates and making people’s lives hell.

The other thing is the election is taking place on my birthday, so I am worrying about this, and trying not to hurt myself. This election is too rushed for my liking, why the hell would Theresa May call it too soon.

Is this because of Brexit?

Is this because she feels she will win, because Labour are low on people’s votes?

What the hell is she playing at?

Sorry, I just needed to write this out.

Just a Quick Post on My Last Reblogging Spell.

I just want you guys to know, that I reblogged the last posts as I found them interesting. However I do not like SJW’s, I do not agree with SJW’s, and I do agree with most of the posts.

I hope I haven’t upset anybody, and I promise I will will try and post more blogs about things, it’s just hard to on this computer. I hope to get a new one soon, and finally get to help people and blog more.

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More empowering Barbies, is making them curvey enough for SJW’s

When I was a little girl I played with Barbie’s, I would cut their hairs and making them have pixie cuts. I also used to like making her an adventurer, especially when I was in the bath, but she would still be girly and have a family. Which is good, but when it comes to certain groups above, when is that enough?

It’s good she is curvey, I mean she was kind of too skinny, and looked like she got smaller since I was kid. But then that could be because I am older, and everything from my childhood looks tiny now, t’s the curse of being older. At the same time, I think we should be empowering young girls, especially if the SJW’s want women to go into computer jobs.

My question is, can we have Barbi’s that designed to teach girls about different occupations?

I mean you can still keep the feminine side of Barbie, but have her doing things like a computer programmer, adding to this a website with a way for Barbie and the little girl to do programming? Making things accessible for little girls, while also explaining girls can do these, even if they are girly.

I imagine this could fire up their little imaginations, imagine princess, spy, fairy, computer programmer Barbie saving the world with Ken by her side. I have a cousin who thinks she is a fair superhero, spy, princess, and god does she have fun pretending to be that way. Why can’t we design these, let their imaginations go wild, without forcing it on them, like some are inclined to do?

It would also show that women and girls, and do the same things as boys or men if they want to. And it would teach them new things too, learning about new skills to add to their quill as Archer the world greatest spy says in his book.

Because the more they can absorb as kids, the more they will want to learn as adults, and that is most important thing there is in the development in children. Being a superhero, spy, fairy princess, empowers my cousin in thinking she is just as good as the boys in school, she has unbelievable confidence and yet also has charisma and care for others. Isn’t that what we want to teach children? In my story, I have written about her, and how she turned one of her Barbies into Kung fu Barbie. I would have loved something like that when I was a kid.

I don’t mean to sound rude, or like a preacher. I read an article by Laurie Penny, one of those new extreme feminists who do not empower women. As I said before Curvy Barbie is good, in the way that girls learn size doesn’t matter. But what went through my mind was, could we have Barbie teach girls about healthy eating too? Barbie being sporty and enjoy exercise, and have a way for her to teach girls that healthy living is good, but you can still have the odd treat?

I think we need to rebrand Barbie from just a fashion doll, and make her into a doll that has more to her, more accessories, more jobs etc.

It would be good in the long run, for the girls of today and their futures.

Sorry for the ramble of boredom and ranting.

A question to Social Justice feminism

I asked the question I am going to ask here to prominent social justice feminists, because I was interested in what they were going to say, as well as trying to highlight the danger of their behaviors and hierarchy.

I asked: Do you think it is dangerous for girls have been raped and abused to be a social justice warriors? Especially since they keep talking about the hate of men, and the fact that they keep on about rape culture? These women or girls might cause serious harm to a man, because of all the mixed up feelings and vulnerability she has. Do you also think it might be dangerous because of the whole Oppression Olympics, that they might feel under valued, due to some being more oppressed than them?

Isn’t it dangerous to make these girls feel even more victimized and powerless when they are already feeling this way?

I thought Feminism is meant to be able empowering women?

I know this might sound like a stupid question(s) to ask, but I worry for the vulnerable girls that really have been raped and abused in the past, and most likely to be persuaded to join the cause. They could be mentally unstable already due to PTSD (real PTSD, not the fake kind SJW’s use like tossing sweets out), they probably have depression too.

Take Cologne for instance, SJW’s are saying that the rapists are oppressed because of their religion and skin colour, however to the girl who has been raped, could be so confused by that. And then find herself angry inside, but because she is part of a group, and scared of being shunned out, she stays and pretends to agree.

This worries me, not because of projection, but because that girl is either going to be so brainwashed, that something is going to happen like a mass shooting or something. Or the girl is going to hate herself so much, that she decides to kill herself.

And what is going to be said to the family, who are going to hear about this? Would she be close to them, or be estranged because of her being a social justice warrior, and trying to push the agenda onto him, and push them away? The family knowing that something like this was going to happen, but they could not get it through to her, because she was so brainwashed.

I wish I could help these girls see the light, I wish I was psychologist so I look after them.

Sorry for going on about this, I know I have been going on about Social Justice Warriors, but I feel this needs to be said.

If my Maximus advisor’s think I am highly intelligent, why do they treat me like i am atupid?

Last night my mind went for a little wander, as I continued my barriers form.

My advisors and even those that I have come into contact, have all called me highly intelligent.

Yet they treat me like I am the dumbest person in the room, and I’ve always wanted to know why?

Were they just saying that to push my confidence?

Were they just trying to be nice?

I always wonder about these things because I am not very good at taking compliments, so I always suspect people who are giving me them.

Also why were they treating me like the dumbest person in the room?

Am I that dumb?

Sorry for the selfishness of this blog, it’s been on my mind for awhile.